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Monday, September 19, 2022

The New "Mrs. Man's Name" is Genderlessness

We have entered the Fourth Turning - the inevitable Crisis of our society has arrived.  Social mores are being reimagined with a vengeance.  It's easy for those of us who have never lived through this before (most of us) to be in a bit of a panic about it, as if this has never happened before, or not to the same degree, or not in the same way... But really, each Crisis has the same effect on those generations who are middle aged and older when it hits.  

For us, it means racism is being reimagined and redefined.  It means that gender is being eliminated from the public sphere.  It means that the economic and political status quo is being uprooted with vocal neo-hippies who want to start from scratch no matter the cost.

And it's easy for us look at the seemingly sudden uproar and freak out.  But really, any honest student of history did see it coming, as William Strauss and Neil Howe's "The Fourth Turning" illustrates.  And therefore, there is no sense in trying to force the genie back in the bottle.  

The Crisis is at hand.  We can fight it and exhaust ourselves, or we can accept it and reimagine our new role in relation to the new world order (and I don't mean this necessarily politically, but just in general).  

In particular, I'm thinking here of gender ideology.  It makes very little sense to me to take a mental disorder and normalize it to the point of gaslighting the rest of us into thinking we have been fooling ourselves all these millennia thinking species come in two sexes.  But that's the first problem - semantics.  

Sex and gender, as I learned back in my undergrad days, are not interchangeable terms.  Therefore, as long as we think they are, we will be talking past each other.

Sex is the biological fact of our physical bodies, including our chromosomal makeup (XY or XX, or some abnormality thereof), our genital makeup (egg-production or sperm-production, or some abnormality thereof), and our secondary sex characteristics (musculature, body hair, voice).  This last section is where the overlap with gender begins. 

While it is true that males tend to be more muscular, more hairy, and have deeper voices, while females tend to be less muscular, less hairy, and have higher voices, this is not universally so and varies by ethnicity.  What's more, it is often exaggerated by socio-cultural efforts to highlight stereotyped beliefs and expectations about the sexes.

Gender is the set of those stereotypes that are associate with a given sex in a specific culture and historical period.  Clothing is a starting point.  Only modern times have allowed the rather extreme differences in acceptable dress for females and males.  Historically speaking, most people wore some variation of a tunic that more or less draped male and female bodies in very comparable ways.  In those times, we generally see women demarcate themselves with an additional head covering, though often males also wore these for practical reasons.  

Outside of clothing, hair has historically been used to accentuate a person's sex/gender, especially when clothing didn't always do the job.  Males often sported facial hair, while females wore their head hair long.  Although with certain cultures, hair was traditionally long universally.

So really: hair, clothing, as well as various adornments like makeup and jewelry are completely arbitrary gender markers, meaning they are socio-cultural ways of signaling the sex of the individual, but they are not what makes the individual the sex that they are.  As such, those things can and do change from culture to culture and between time periods.

With that said, it is important to note that what gives those markers any meaning at all is that society agrees on those meanings.  Once society starts to question the association of facial hair with masculinity or makeup with femininity, we enter chaos, because people no longer know what to expect.  This is where we find ourselves today with gender bender ideology.

Twenty years ago, I was on the bandwagon of gender neutrality to a point, before I had realized the logical conclusion of such a world-view.  I was outspoken against sexist language, I refused sex-based social titles ("Mrs") and names (husband's surname), and I entered motherhood insisting on what I thought was a gender-neutral babyhood for my children.  

By today's standards, I was mild.  For me, being gender-neutral just meant wearing neutrally-colored and decorated onsies and outfits that looked equally cute on a little girl or a little boy.  I never once thought to undermine the idea that underneath it all, there actually WAS a little girl OR a little boy.   I also didn't push stereotypical toys onto my children, instead focusing on things I deemed educational and useful for a human child, regardless of sex.  So I got cars for my daughter and dolls for my son.  I thought I was a rebel.

Today, parents are no longer allowing society to even try to force their gendered stereotypes onto their children by... simply not revealing to anyone which sex their child is.  They choose gender-neutral names and use the third person plural pronoun to refer to the child, so that people simply cannot stereotype them according to sex. In my generation, we did what we could, but there were still people who, knowing we had a daughter or a son, would nonetheless come at us with color-coded gifts and assumptions about their temperament or future careers.  Technically, we were still at the mercy of well-meaning, or not-so-well-meaning others.

Today's gender-neutral parents have found a way to take that risk completely out of the equation.  I can't say that I blame them.  I get so up in arms about nonsense I hear about my daughter's physically attractiveness but my son's temperament, as if they don't both have both qualities.  

Yet I'm not exactly on board with the new gender bender world-view.  I believe the sexes ought to have equal opportunities and be treated with equal respect, but I do not believe they should become indistinguishable from each other.  I believe it is something beautiful to be feminine as a female, and to be masculine as a male.  God made us male and female and said it was very good, and I for one have no reason to argue.  There are things about being female that are wonderful precisely because they are not universal to all humans.  Part of what makes us human, in fact, is actually our sex and the associated life experiences that differentiate us from the opposite sex.  

I do honor each individual's right to identify how they want to identify - on one hand.  On the other hand, what bothers me is the lack of understanding why such a seismic shift in worldview is being thrust upon us oldtimers with such fury and so little comprehension for why it may take us time - a lot of time - to wrap our minds around it.  Accusing us of being bigotted hardly opens up the lines of communication.  

When I call a biological female "she", it's not to be disrespectful, but it's because that is what four decades of living on this planet has taught me.  Expecting an overnight change is simply unrealistic, and yes, we're going to push back against being forced to change.

But there's more.  We also learned how to be respectful, and interestingly, respect is not expressed in universal ways.  I remember people thinking they were being "respectful" when they referred to me as "Mrs. Husband's First Name".  It absolutely infuriated me!  I come from a culture where thank God this type of "etiquette" never took root, and so I did not find it respectful in the least to have my own name erased from the public square simply because I was married.  I never stopped to consider that the people offending me were not doing so intentionally.  They were operating according to the rules they had been taught.  Their world view had not had a chance to upgrade.

And so here we are again, this time with me being the inadvertent disrespector when I "misgender" someone.  Back when, I sighed with annoyance when someone assumed I went by "Mrs. Man" but I absolutely went berserk when someone called me that even after I let them know that was not how I wanted to be addressed.  

Today, people are having the exact same reaction to us calling them "she" or "he" based on our cultural programming, which tells us that 1) we can make gender assumptions based on people's external markers such as physical features or name, and that 2) sex and gender are essentially the same thing.  I'm trying to be respectful, because the idea of calling someone "it" - that is, ungendered, is downright dehumanizing.  And yet that is what people thought they were doing if they didn't acknowledge my affiliation with my husband - as if my existence as a human being was somehow diminished because I was married yet not being acknowledged as such.  Married status was seen as more important for a woman than a man.

Today's youth are doing away with gender as a concept altogether, and while I grew up with gender as a fact of life, if I want to maintain integrity in respecting the wishes of individuals even when I do not understand said wishes, I will need to readjust how I think about people without the lens of gender.

My gut reaction is that to take away gender is to take away the humanity of a person.  But for the youth of today, who are simply not "married" to their sex the way I was not "married" to my... well, being married, one of us is going to need to adjust our world-view.  I, being of an older generation, claim to have more wisdom, which includes the ability to compare current situations with previous ones and to draw similarities between them.  I cannot expect the same from the youth.  They are making their demands not to be difficult, althought their demands are indeed very difficult for us old-timers.  They are making their demands in the same spirit as I made my demands 20 years ago.  I simply wanted the right to define myself by my own standards.  I did not want to be told who I was.  Once I was allowed to do so, with time and experience, I came around to the idea of being called "Mrs.".  Albeit, I still will not go by my husband's given name.  But I would happily respond if someone simply called my by his surname.  That is the compromise that could have only come through time.

And so I can hope for as much to get worked out with this new demand of genderlessness.  God willing, with enough time and life experience, the pendulum will swing again in the direction of balance, and as people stop pushing gender on others, those others will stop insisting on avoiding gender, and eventually we will arrive in a place of compromise where we can all agree that life makes sense again.  

But this won't happen any time soon.  And so, I embark on a new phase in my life - acknowledging that I am now part of the middle-aged generation, and that our ideas are no longer the new thing.  I have to make way for the even newer ideas, and practice patience, humility, and understanding.

I trust that this new attitude will be much more healthy and useful than digging my heels in and rolling my eyes at each new mention of gender.  I don't have to understand it or even embrace it for myself to respect that it matters to other people.  If I am to see others the way God sees them, that starts with making an effort to try to see them the way they see themselves.  

Thursday, September 15, 2022

Jesus First Spirituality

Thanks be to God, the Lord has been leading me to understand what it means to have a Jesus-first spirituality without becoming a Protestant!

I had to first shed the idea that the Sunday church experience is supposed to somehow "carry" us through the week.  No, we need to put forth our own effort throughout the week.  Sunday ought to be a time of renewal and recharging for the week, but it does not excuse us from working out our own salvation (Philippians 2:12-13).

Divine Liturgy is the communal/corporate aspect of our spirituality and faith.  It is not the be all and end all.  There must be prayer rules and fasting rules in place.  There must be regular confession and Bible reading.  There must be regular silent meditation either in nature or Eucharistic adoration (or both).  

We do need to be intentional about who our friends are, and even more who our children's friends are.  But we don't want to become so isolationist that our kids don't know how to be friends with people who are different from them.  There needs to be a balance.  

The homeschooling co-op at the Orthodox church is a good local source of well behaved Christian friends for our kids (and me).  But we do need to still make an effort to find specifically Catholic friends for us.

Perhaps the monthly children's Mass and time fellowshipping afterwards may be a good source of Catholic friends.  It may also be a good source of small groups that meet during the week.  

Thursday, September 1, 2022

Just the Facts - Maronite Rite

Fact - I want to remain Catholic.

Fact - There are different varieties of Catholic out there.

Fact - We have found one such Catholic church in the Maronite church.

Fact - The manner of reception of Holy Communion matters to me.

Fact - The manner of reception of Holy Communion at the Maronite church checks off several of the boxes for me: unleavened Host, dipped in Blood-Wine and therefore receive once but under both forms, received directly on the tongue, received directly from consecrated hands, received in the context of a joyous and reverent liturgy.  

Fact - I am used to kneeling in the context of worship.

Fact - I associate kneeling with reverence and humility.

Fact - One of the reasons we are looking for a new church is to become part of a community of faithful.

Fact - To be part of a community, we need to adjust to their cultural norms.

Fact - The Maronite Catholics do not kneel during their Divine Liturgy, as it is a Western/Latin practice.

Fact - I can still kneel in private prayer, in Eucharistic Adoration, on retreat, whenever attending Novus Ordo (daily) Mass, and even before/after Divine Liturgy.

Fact - I have long been drawn to veiling.

Fact - Being around a lot of women who veil at Holy Cross Orthodox church has given me the confidence I needed to start this devotion without worrying about if I'm the only one doing it.

Fact - Women's veiling is a universal historical practice.

Fact - The Maronite church in question does not currently have any women who veil.

Fact - I can still veil while in attendance at the Maronite Divine Liturgy without being disrespectful because it is not a Latinate custom.

Fact - A commute doesn't lend itself to a very convenient community.

Fact - None of the Catholic churches we have considered lend themselves to a very convenient community either, and those that do, are not to our standards in terms of reverence.

Fact - Holy Cross is not an ideal church choice for us because (1) it is not Catholic and therefore we cannot fully participate in the Liturgy as we are barred from their Communion, (2) if we were to become catechumens, we would have to stop receiving the Eucharist at Catholic churches and so we would go without being spiritually fed until our formal reception into Orthodoxy, and (3) their Communion form is so foreign to me that it does not feel like the Eucharist at all.

Fact - We have missed the boat on allowing our children full access to the Holy Mysteries from the time of their baptism because we come from the Latin rite and were unaware of alternatives.

Fact - Going forward, my son can get married and still become a priest in the Maronite Rite should that be what God is calling him to.  

Fact - DH and I both agree we felt positive vibes from the Maronite church.

Fact - If community is what we're after, we already met one family from the Maronite church - the very homeschoolers who introduced us to this Rite!  We should make an effort to both meet additional people there, and to help the kids that have already met hit it off.

Fact - The Maronite church seems to be a good blend of what I love about Catholicism and what I've come to love about Orthodoxy.  

Fact - Hearing chant and prayers in a language closely related to the very language Jesus spoke is valuable in itself, and this is something the Maronite Rite offers that cannot be found in other Rites.

Fact - Unless and until we come across an obstacle, we should continue where we have been led, even if unexpectedly and even if it doesn't look exactly as I had envisioned it.

Fact - Seemingly missing from the Maronite church: color and wall decoration of any kind, kneeling, women's head covering, proximity to our home, unknown homeschooling people.

Fact - The alternative to the Maronite church is the Novus Ordo church led by Fr. Eric, where we will nonetheless continue to attend monthly children's Mass.  This is the "safe" option.  We may need to quickly discern where to become parishioners in order for Antonio to receive his First Communion there.

Fact - Antonio wants to receive his First Communion at a reverent church, he would prefer to receive kneeling, today in church he said he'd rather wait until he's 7 so it'll be more special, and now he says kneeling isn't as important to him anymore.  Bottom line, we need to make an executive decision for him.

Fact - I want to give the Maronite church a fair shake.  I don't know what the future holds, but I'm intrigued enough to return and to prepare some questions for the priest there and make an effort to meet some of the other parishioners.

Lingering with the Maronites

If I am really intent on following the Lord where He may lead me, I will have to be open to stepping out of my comfort zone.  Maybe that means refraining from kneeling during Divine Liturgy.  Maybe that means commuting to our church community.  Maybe that means joining a faith community that has grown from an ethnic heritage that is different from that of anyone in our family.

And maybe the reason I must step outside of my comfort zone is that within it, our faith has gotten stale.  Within it, I have exhausted all possible paths to piety and virtue and holiness.  Within it, we stagnate and do not grow.

Maybe growth in our spiritual lives means becoming open to something different.  In the fantastic show "The Chosen", which is known for ad libbing to fill in contextual gaps from the Bible to help us better relate to the key players of the Gospel, there is a scene where Jesus says, "Get used to different."  Perhaps He never actually said these words, but isn't that what His message was all about anyway?  To see with new eyes?

2 Corinthians 5:17 says: "Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come: The old has gone, the new is here!"

The Lord led me to Holy Cross, the Antiochian Eastern Orthodox Church where we have lingered for over a year off and on.  Several months ago, there was a brief moment where I thought we were ready to make the jump and convert.  But the Lord stopped me in my tracks with the Eucharist.

I love everything about the Orthodox Holy Cross parish except the Eucharist, and the Eucharist is precisely the center of our faith and the purpose for which we are seeking a reverent church!  It need not be logical.  I'm autistic, and I came to faith in Jesus's Real Presence in the Eucharist when it was in the unleavened form of the Host.  While I thought I'd really like to have leavened bread in liturgy and communion, my actual experience has been otherwise.  

I've received leavened bread at an Episcopal church once.  And I've observed leavened bread at Orthodox Divine Liturgy.  And to my eyes, it is bread.  It is beautifully symbolic bread.  There is something about the unleavened Host that is reminiscent of the manna from heaven that we read about in Exodus 15 and John 6:58.

I've often said that there needs to be something other-worldly about the environment of the worship space.  That's why mere table fellowship in the way of the Quakers didn't do it for me.  And while I was very excited about the prospect of baking our church's anaphora bread that would then be consecrated for Holy Communion, it actually made it too ... mundane.  

I don't doubt that the early Eucharist was just this way.  I'm not commenting on the validity of the Eucharist when in this form.  I'm merely stating that the Lord is using this hesitation of mine to better lead me to where He wants our family.

When we visited the Russian Rite Catholic church, they used the spoon and leavened bread.  I didn't feel it there, either.  I realized then that it's not about Rome, or the Papacy, or which church is more apostolic than the other.  For me, it is going to come down to the Eucharist.

But while the Eucharist at our Novus Ordo Masses is the way I need it to be relatable and believable, the lack of reverence around it counters my expectations.

And while the Eucharist at the Tridentine Masses is indeed surrounded by reverent liturgy, that liturgy is somber and downright depressing.  

At Holy Cross, I have experienced joyful and reverent liturgy, and so what remained to be found is a joyful and reverent liturgy that also has the Eucharist that I can relate to.

And then we went to the Maronite Catholic Divine Liturgy, which felt part Orthodox, part Catholic, and part.... je ne c'est qua! It was familiar enough that I could feel comfortable joining in prayer.  It was reverent and joyful.  I was able to fully part-take in the very purpose of the gathering - to partake of the Lord's body and blood in the Eucharist in a form that spoke to me.  Not only was it the familiar unleavened Host, but it was the Host dipped in the Blood-wine and received all in one act of reception!  

The few times I've received the Eucharistic Jesus under both forms of bread and wine have always been via two separate acts - host on tongue (or worse, on the hand!) and sip from the chalice.  This always felt divisive of Our Lord.  There is One God, One Lord, One Body and Blood, One salvation.  Having the Eucharist split like this inevitably led to eventually eliminating the laity from receiving the Blood at all.  Which begged the question - do we still receive the Lord fully as He intended us to?  He did say, "Take and eat; take and drink."  

Yes, there are differences in the Maronite church.  But this is good, I think.  It allows us to look at our faith anew.  It gives us an opportunity to learn with fresh insights what it is that we do when we gather for worship!

There are no familiar Stations of the Cross on the walls of the church.  No stained glass windows.  No kneelers and no kneeling.  This particular church doesn't seem to currently have the practice of women veiling, but I don't think that is a stumbling block.  I think since veiling is a universal heritage and not a Latin practice, I can confidently continue to veil without fear of coming across as trying to Latinize this beautiful Catholic Rite.

What if, when I longed for the Orthodox and Catholic churches to unite, the Eastern Rites of the Catholic church are what God answered with?  For where we are now, perhaps the Maronite Rite is the right one for us.  Perhaps in the future, if we move, a different Rite will take it's place.  But at least I know it will still be Catholic, I will still be faithful to my conscience, and I will not need to keep myself or my daughter away from the Eucharist as we transition between churches.

I thought I wanted to check out the former Anglican ordinariate churches when I recently found out about them.... but I don't think I need to anymore.  I think the Maronite church is where the Lord wants us right now.  

What remains to be seen is if this is where we shall become official parishioners, and if this is where my son shall receive his First Holy Communion.

Lord, lead me on the path.  Amen.